Welcome to Thunderdome...
What are you getting into?
Well, this simply is a new version of my LiveJournal blog I started when coming out to deal with my transition and exploring the way my life has changed by finally living it. I don’t think I’m going to port over the other posts right now. That could change, but for right now, we’re going forward.
Who am I, what’s my name?
Greetings, hail, and welcome Dear Reader! I hope you are well and having a good life. My name is Lily Jayne. I am a trans woman who came out later in life after suffering depression and anxiety that never seemed to abate, no matter how many pills or therapy sessions galore, for over thirty years before finally seeing beyond the veil one fateful night two years ago as I’m writing this.
But trans people are scary! That’s what the news says.
I’m just Lily. I have no special powers, no ability to change your life, no desire to topple society (save for patriarchy and racial biases in systems, but that’s another time). All I’m here to do is give you a perspective based on lived experiences and knowledge I’ve gained from all the searching I’ve done over the past two years, and even a few years before that. I’m just living my life and loving it for once because I finally understand who I truly am. That’s the only magic I have in my life.
What makes you special?
Nothing more than any other trans person I think. I just have a unique perspective I actually feel like sharing with the world. I have lived in Iowa all my life, and I have no desire to leave if I don’t have to. I love my family, my mom especially. I love music, playing my guitar, enjoying manga and anime, and having many times of coffee and contemplation through my journaling.
I love the wild beauty of this state in some corners and the way the roads sweep across the state. I’ve driven over a million miles through this state in the course of my former career and my life’s travels. I’ve experienced things that are quintessential Iowa both posing as a man and as a woman. I’ve traveled the country as much as possible, and I have many thoughts and desires much like anyone else does. This world is finally beautiful in my eyes and so is my life. No matter how messy it is.
Do you expect me to do anything?
Only what you’re willing to do. Read my stories, subscribe to my journal, donate if you are able. Support me if you like me! Share me to your friends. I promise I don’t bite, but I will give an unvarnished look inside my head and what life is like when you change your entire identity in a Christian family structure after 42 years of not feeling like you belong. Welcome, and enjoy the ride. Glad to have you!